Our little blueberry.


Our baby was the size of a blueberry, 8 weeks along. We told our families, who were thrilled! We started dreaming about names and planning how the year would look with another one entering the family.

Our little one was 8 weeks, when I started to have cramping and bleeding. After a long weekend of things looking worse and worse as the moments dragged on, we got in to the doctor to find out that this little bug was with our Lord. We were miscarrying.

It has been a sad couple of weeks, filled with lots of tears. We are not grieving alone, which has made the world of difference. Family and friends have been instrumental. But most of all, we have been strengthened by the peace and presence of Jesus. We trust that our first little one is safely and purposefully with Him. And we trust Him in making this a part of our story. We are not forgetting, but we are moving forward, hopeful, and forever changed.

You are my servant, I have chosen you and not rejected you. Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Do not anxiously look about, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.

Isaiah 41:10


6 thoughts on “Our little blueberry.

  1. Ellie – I’m so sorry to hear about your baby. My heart is breaking for you. Praying for you and Caleb.


  2. Caleb and Elli,
    We love you dearly and are so sorry to hear this news. Thankfully the Lord always has a plan for us, bigger and better than we can ever imagine. We are praying for you and hope you can find strength in Jesus through this time. We love you!
    Zach & Kerri

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